The Urge to Write

The weirdest thing has happened. In my tiredness, I can barely bring myself to stand up at times. Grading is almost more than I can bear. But in the midst of this, I feel the urge to write. As my kids are watching a movie, I just want to sit here and pour out words onto the page. Not about anything in particular, just writing, thinking, sharing, being. I hate to finish a post, because then I feel like I should be done writing. Maybe this will spur me on to something different.

The other thing I've found energy for is reading my friend Leah's blog. She is a wonderful, engaging writer, and I feel almost transported as I read whatever she has to say for the day. Her last post about fall in Pennsylvania reminds me of childhood back East - with her - and makes me hunger for real fall. Falling, colorful leaves, comfort food and hot drinks, pumpkins, and days of sweatshirts and light jackets. Yes, please.

Mononucleosis

I can barely spell it, but I have it. I was finally persuaded to make the trip to RediMed after dinner last night, because I have been feeling way too tired for weeks, since even before the wedding. The last few nights I had a low grade fever. I am not contagious unless I sneeze directly into someone's face or share eating utensils, so I can go to school, but wow, I don't feel well. This is not the type of thing that I would normally share with a general populous who may be reading my blog, but I am trying to be more disciplined in keeping up.This just happens to be what is going on in my life at the moment, and because I am too tired to do much, that's about all that's going on.

I can, though, share how wonderful my husband is. What man really wants to start off marriage taking care of a pathetically sick wife for potentially months on end?

Mine.

Andrew has not only picked up all of the slack, but also has said numerous times that he is so glad to be able to take care of me. He even stayed with me and held my hand when they took blood for the mono test. "In sickness and in health" is being lived out at our house, and my husband is the most gracious and caring man. With him, it's easy to count my blessings.

My Love/Hate Relationship with the Internet

Currently it's all hate. The internet at school is lousy at best, making it impossible to take attendance or put any grades in the grade book. The poor students who are expected to use the 30 computers in my room every day have to fight slowness and the inability to load anything valuable. That is, if their machines even turn on.

If you couldn't already tell, I am extremely annoyed, and the lack of technology is wearing my nerves thin. I could go old school and make my students do everything with pencil and paper - which I have done to some extent - but whether we like it or not, technology is here to stay, and my students must gain mastery of different tools to be successful in life. Most of them also learn this way best. Maybe it is a problem with our society, and we rely too much of machines, but I can't change the nature of that. I have to meet my students where they are. Which I am right now...at a place called frustration.

Catching Up - Exhaustion

I thought with my students again blogging, that it would be easier to take time to find some personal discipline in writing on my blog. Oh, so naive.

With a wedding, moving into a new house, and missing almost two weeks of school between honeymoon and sickness, I have done nothing but sleep and make pitiful attempts at catching up. My stack of papers to grade is getting bigger than me and is growing by the hour. It probably wouldn't be so bad if I could actually keep my eyes open or find the energy to do more than jsut get through the school day. Hopefully I'll get enough naps in this week to get The Year of Fun back on the right track...

Speaking of fun, my friend Leah's blog has pictures and a story about my wedding that makes me teary. Feel free to visit justpluckingdaisies.com. :)